It sucks when you get confused by relationship stuff. (I hate using the word stuff but I can’t think of any suitable word to use right now. Haha.) All the more do I hate it when it involves me. Argh!
It sucks when you want to but don’t dare to. Like, sometimes, you would feel as if he is the right one for you, but then you’d take a step back and re-examine everything. You weigh things out and decide to wait. In the end, you would not dare to start anything.
Like sometimes, as much as you want to tell the person, you hold back because you don’t know if it is worth risking the friendship that you have forged. You get scared of the repercussions. You get pessimistic about what’s going to happen if it does not go the way you want to. You get all the WHAT IFs.
It sucks even more when you fall for someone you never thought you’d fall for. All the ‘wrong’ circumstances. The ‘wrong’ type of person. All the things you told yourself not to fall for. And yet, here you are trapped in it. What was wrong now seems right? Argh.
Sigh.
And it sucks. When you know that you just don’t know.
